I'm no expert on trauma. For me, I remembered the events vividly, but the emotions were disconnected -- I didn't remember the feelings, until they came up in therapy.

As I understand it, others have said that they had "repressed memories" and there have been prosecutions of people based on that theory that are now considered false. Also people have themselves been hurt by believing that their own "false memories" had to be true when they weren't.

But, if you feel that you are missing some emotions, it seems to me like that's something to look into, if you want to. There are probably some down sides to that, so that seems like something to discuss with a therapist, too.

I've participated in a lot of discussions in the psychotherapy forum here, too, and something I've gotten from that is the idea that when I go to a therapist I am the one in charge of deciding what I want from them, so I don't see any conflict in going to a therapist to ask specifically about trauma and not bother with things that you have tended to lie about with them in the past. If they push and don't respect what you have to say about that, then probably they aren't a good therapist for you to work with right now. Hopefully in your country you have some choices about who you see and for what?

I have pretty much always tried to tell therapists the truth but then they have shamed me for it, so I'm surely not going to suggest that you try to tell the truth about something to someone until and unless you decide to try to trust them -- and they can still disappoint you. (Such is life!)