Hi Mel, it seems the past few days have been very boring for me as well. Then comes the frustration and anger along with it. I don't know whether you work or not, but I am at home alone all day with plenty of things I should do, but nothing that I really want to do. Life just seems to pass me by with everyone doing their thing and with me watching but not wanting to contribute much. I guess that's the depression talking. However, during the day when I am in my hyponmanic mood swings I just want to organize everything and especially do things that are dangerous like gambling and drinking alcohol while I am there, or go shopping when I shouldn't, then hide what I buy. Crazy thinking goes along with it. So when I am bored I should be thankful at least I am safer than going out there among others and later feeling guilty for what I might have done. I hope you can find some healthier things to occupy your time than I do. But to be completely real to myself the bad things right now are the only ones that give me pleasure. Anyone else have these feelings and what stops you from doing the wrong things during depression and manic times?