Am wondering if anyone out there has experience of being so disconnected from people, ( except those of family and close friends) if you see yourself in a friendship, and or relationship (romantic) ever?
I have not been in any kind of friendship or relationship for the past 9 years, and feel at times it will not happen with me that I find anyone to be with romantic or friendship wise. I think it is certainly because of what different parts of me think and feel about being close emotionally or even physically. Yet watching shows that portray a good close relationship, I wish I had one, but then think no I don't. I wonder if being disconnected from people my own age as the only people in my life are my two kids, will make for meeting somone more difficult? Over the 9 years I have tried, but a part pushes people away. Hate loneliness but want it too. Feel in-between and makes things harder. Thoughts??