I am not in a relationship and have not been for a very long time. I know I (we) are not ready for one. Perhaps one day that might be different, but I don't see how. We have too much trauma around attachment to even really see it as a possibility. We have never been loved and can't even imagine it to be possible.
However, we are now seeing a T who can do EMDR, and after researching that I see it might be a possibility at some point to target some core beliefs around that.
Not yet, but.
We don't even really have friends... well we have two very long time friends that live far away from us. Family... nuh uh, don't want 'em. We are very isolated in real life. Although at work we are surrounded by people every day. But they only really see me, and the front functional ones. Nobody knows what happens after hours, or how dysfunctional we really are. That is all so very, very hidden.

We know that the isolation keeps us stable. We have a fine line to walk in order to be functional... once we stray from that narrow path our stability comes crashing down like a house of cards.
Sad, but it is what it is.