It's important for you to tell her the truth so that you can move on from the guilt. She will understand and give you an outlet to talk about your feelings of guilt and shame. She won't judge you. Give her a chance to help you through this troubled time.

Instead of dumpster diving, go to the food bank in your community. Also watch for churches that offer free meals to the homeless and low income people.

Here's my take on therapists being that I'm an accountant. She's a professional you hire to help you. She's not your best friend, and while it's nice if you can be on friendly terms, you're paying her for her professional advice. You don't owe it to her to come back and pay her when you clearly can't afford it.