That's for damn sure.

I'm tired as hell today and kind of jittery. My mom's in the hospital with lithium toxicity and I spent most of last night basically being her health advocate. I'm kind of all over the place emotionally, including guilt for feeling what I do at all.

Nothing to make one feel like a little kid masquerading as a grown-up like signing consent forms in your semi-conscious mother's stead. It's cringey when people comment how "mature" or "stoic" (LOL!) I am about the whole thing. If you saw the inside of my mind you wouldn't say that.

I called the hospital this morning and she's going in for dialysis again - seems to be stable though.