I completely understand how you feel. I think being the center of attention is torture. I stopped seeing one therapist as he'd always sit and stare at me, and then when he told me I looked very nice in the dress I was wearing, I was so uncomfortable I never went back!!!

Most of us don't see ourselves as others see us. Watch this 6 minute video by Dove Soap where they hired a forensic artist to sketch a group of women based only on their descriptions of themselves--the women were behind a curtain so he couldn't see them. Later these women came back and were assigned to chat with a random stranger for a few minutes, and then the stranger described the women to the artist who drew a second sketch based on that person's description. It's very interesting how much more accurate the stranger's description is. I've watched this numerous times, and find it's really helped me to see myself more accurately.