i used to practice buddhism but it seems like with as much as i go to school and work i have no time. that did used to help me a lot and thats why im not so angry now but i work 40+ hours a week plus go to school full time. so ive gone back to smoking but not 2 packs a day like i used to. i made my last pack last me about 2 weeks. i know its bad for me but as of right now i have no other outlet.

it was hard for me to realize that im using his emotions to control him. but when i sat down and thought about the stupid fights we get in and how all i do is put him down, i wouldnt blame him for blowing up on me.

its always harder to take a look at yourself and figure out whats wrong. yesterday i lost my keys and ended up staying on campus until almost 9 p.m. last night and he had a horrible day at work which normally would have turned into us killing each other but we didnt. which was nice.

thank you for the link. ill check it out.