I've struggled with anxiety and depression for a long long time, however I have been doing well for the last few years. I feel myself spiraling again. I lost of pregnancy a couple of weeks ago. It was my first and my husband and I were so excited! Shortly after the positive home test, we found out it was abnormal, and waited for a week for a confirmation. We were told it was most likely an etopic pregnancy. I went in for surgery, they couldn't find any evidence of pregnancy, but found a lot of other things wrong.

I was diagnosed with endometriosis 4 years ago and the surgery confirmed it has spread and it will continue to spread. I was told by a dr 3 years ago, I should get pregnant sooner than later and now I am kicking myself. In the last two years it has increased and now is probably effecting my fertility.

I didn't want to ever be pregnant, anything like that... my husband and I were in the process of foster care licensing when I just wanted my own biological child as well as doing foster care. I kinda wish we had never tried and we could just continue on as before....