Hi InsomniacRabbit. Welcome to Psych Central ! I am sorry you have this dread of an anxiety attack. That is what anxiety is, fearing something that may happen in the future. Since you are on disability you may have insurance that will let you find you a psych doc or therapist that could help you stay stable with meds or talk therapy. Peer support here is available in the forums and the chat rooms, but it is a good supplement to professional help, not a substitute.

Here are some articles that I have read and found helpful to keep me alert and mindful of my situation.

15 Small Steps You Can Take Today to Improve Anxiety Symptoms | Psych Central

https://psychcentral.com/lib/top-10-...s-for-anxiety/

Taking on Anxiety and the Irrational Fears in Your Life | Psych Central

These are written by people with experience in the field.

You sound like a highly creative person that is also working hard toward your goals. I commend you on your work ethic. You can't work every time the boss wants you to.

Diet is important to me. High protein low carb helps me stay stable. Having protein or nuts or yogurt every 3-4 hours keeps me out of that hole of no energy and the fight or flight response starts taking hold. A healthy snack brings me back so I feel more stable.

Thanks for joining our community.