Hang in there. there is hope. I have been IP 30 times in 6.5 years. Many times it felt hopless to keep trying to fight this illness and that I would never be well. It has been slow progress, gosh I am IP right now, but my admissions are becoming less often and stable periods last longer. (2 months is a major victory for me) My meds have been messed with way more than I can count and i have tried dozens and most were failures. yet, now I finally have a great doctor and after several med changes we are making progress.

If you give up now you may miss out on the best part of your life, the part where you find yourself enjoying life, even despite some set backs and hospitalisations here and there. Do you trust and get on well with your pdoc? how long have you been with them?