Patagonia, actually almost everybody in polyamorous relationship experiences jealousy, it is a natural human emotion and pretending it is a bad thing to feel is dangerous. What is important is how you deal with the jealousy.

Anyways, a lot of **** has happened in the few days since I posted this. One of my best friends who I've been in love with for four years came on to me. I had a three hour conversation with my husband about my needs and our options. He ended up deciding that he does not want to be monogamous, even if it is easier, and that he wants to start putting in the work so that we can open our relationship. He is scared, because it is a risk, but I guess he finally thinks it is worth it. Since then, we opened our relationship to a set of close friends and things have gone decently thus far. I'm just really hoping it stays this way and he keeps processing things positively.