please look up women's crisis lines in your area. or women and children's services as they are the best resources to help you develop a plan of safety.

I fear for your safety and the safety of anyone in the reach of this man. I am sorry you are in this situation.

there are many people trained and staffing 24 hr hotlines who can listen and offer realistic support for wherever you are at......and you said that you aren't going to leave so they can work with you on solutions that will help you realize that you are worth far more than this type of frightening violence that NO ONE should ever have to endure.

please don't wait. please consider surrendering the animals to a loving home as they are the most innocent victims of this scenario.

one thing that screams out at me from your post

*****I am a smart person, and I know that anybody would tell me to get the hell out, but I am not going to quit something I have worked on.*****

you are a smart person but you aren't treating yourself with respect by sticking out a dangerous situation that is escalating. Sometimes we have to recognize when investing more time isn't helping but instead keeping you one more day in fear, one more day afraid of what might happen next. That is no way to live.

it is a cycle and it can be broken.

hotlines are anonymous and 24 hours in many places. I don't know any national off the top of my head but I'm sure that if you look in your phone book you'll find local and state resources. check your state's webpage.

I've seen women make the break and their lives change for the better with the support of those that have walked in that scary path before. Find those women and please tell this story and get help now.