My pdoc, psychiatrist, is also my therapist. I am considered moderately to severely disable with a high IQ and I attend a day hospital, I cant work.

I am taking lamotrigine 75mg which is causing me severe agitation, restlessness, anxiety and desperation, so I went to an emergency appointment with my pdoc. Benzos don't work even a high doses

Told pdoc why gabapentin is an excelent idea, few side effects, anxiolitic effect, mood stabilizer, no adiction, no toleration, no dependance... I told him anxiety and agitation and restlessness is killing me to the point I cannot sleep, study, play or do anything and I am desperated.
He said he didn't have experience using it with lamotrigine so he won't give it to me. I friendly argue with him and told him I know people who takes both, I told him I have checked on the pharmacology book, I told him many things. Remember I am a pharmacy student.
He got angry, and said he would prescribe me 300mg once a day because I was being too stubborn and insistent -and I am because I am desperated-, but he would make me sign something that say he won't be responsible of any side effect it causes me because of being taken with lamotrigine, it was against his opinion.
I told him I didn't want to take something he didn't want me to take because it makes me feel bad to take something he doesn't agree with, then he said all of this 30minutes has been a waste of time and he has other many patients waiting -it was an emergency appointment.-. He also said he has been really open with my meds recomendation, more than normal -in the context that's why he gave me lamotrigine-.. He also said I was abusing benzos, while I am not, I am taking it for anxiety not becase I want to have fun.


I don't have the gabapentin. He said he would give it to me but he didn't want to and was very angry about it, so I told him I didn't want him to give me something he doesn't want to and makes him angry.
When he told me he won't give me two meds that he has never used together and if something happened to me he could be in troubles, I told him what if I get The Rash from lamotrigine? all side effects are not his responsability. He didn't say anything and just said again he wasn't comfortable and makes him angry to give me gabapentin.


He also said I was abusing benzos because I was taken too much, but I find it pretty normal to take a lot of benzo is anxiety is killing you at the point you are thinking about jumping through the window to avoid anxiety. and also said I was extorting him about not going to the next appoitment, which the real reason is I don't want him to make me feel like **** again.

I don't have any more, when he said I wsa abusing them I gavve them to him to show him I wasn't. So I don't have benzos. I don't know what to do.

I feel like ****. I won't see him on my appointment on Friday. I don't know when I will shedule another appointment. He also said he doesn't want to talk about meds but about emotions and my life, but sincerly, after all of this, being med something really 'apersonal, impersonal, non-private, non-sensitive' and ending up really bad, I don't know if it is a good idea to talk with him about sensitive stuff.

Thee day hospital is making me feel more hopelessly, lonely, sad, frustrated, ... activities are for people with low cognitive function, so I don't fit on any, I just sit on a chair and do some college homework. There is not any other day hospital in the area, and this is the only psychotherapist at the day hospital. On regual

What do I do?