I agree, about wearing her out. I look back and I'm surprised she took this much. The unfortunate part is I don't see a therapist now because I don't have insurance and paying out of pocket isn't in the cards right now. All I can do is get little amounts of help and take baby steps. I actually spoke to my girlfriend earlier while she was on her lunch break and explained that she isn't the cause to this so she shouldn't be getting the damage dealt from it. I need to work this out and she just said once I do I can see how beautiful our relationship can be without me being held back.

But one thing, you mentioned my parents being to blame instead of failed relationships, etc. That's interesting and something I haven't thought much of. Do you think growing up around a fractured marriage is what really caused me to have such insecurity issues, rather than earlier relationships where I was constantly lied to and possibly (unsure) cheated on? Or possibly both?