I've been in that boat before but my coping skills are not the best. Sorry I'm not of much help there. However I did get through it and I don't even remember now when I've felt that way last. Also I'm not sure if this helps but I currently to have a T. Today is not one of my better days and I see horrible days up ahead and there's not much I can do. I have no choice other than to push forward and just deal with what there is to come and try to change what I've screwed majorly as I try not to punish myself for my actions which could have prevented this scenario.