Thanks for the reply and I'm glad (not necessarily a good thing) that you feel how I do and I've broken off relationships because it got to be too much on myself too. It's hard to find someone else to listen because she listens best of all, even if it's me being crazy and throwing scenarios at her of what I think she'd do or won't do and she listens, supports me and tells me what needs to be said.

Funny you mention planning something special, because I do that often despite me being anxious so much. Last weekend we went to Salem for 3 days for our first "vacation" and it was amazing. She surprised me with a photo album of the trip and left it at my house while I was at work with a note saying how closer it made us. But this Monday is apparently some "super moon" full moon and I told her last night I wanted to take her somewhere so we could see it, a big reason why is she is into astrology and is a Cancer so I thought she would appreciated it.