I'm sorry you're going through this as I know how tough it is to deal with.

Have you ever considered that those of us with depression, anxiety, mood disorders and other related issues aren't able to produce the needed neurotransmitters so we need to supplement them in order to feel normal?

Here is a brain function questionnaire that I think you'll find interesting, especially the 'O Group' as feeling fearful is a symptom of your brain not having enough of the opoid neurotransmitters.

http://drjolee.com/Brain-Function-Questionnaire.pdf

I was on meds for 13+ years for bipolar 2 with tons of side-effects and only marginal success. When the side-effects got to where I just couldn't take it any more, I went off them and later learned about using amino acids to control it along with the mineral supplement lithium orotate. I've been using the amino acids for 9 years now, and it's amazing how much better I feel. And if my mood shifts or I'm overly anxious, I just take a couple of extra of whichever supplement I need, and I'm usually fine within a few hours.

Here are some articles on controlling depression and anxiety with alternative treatments:

Amino Acid Therapy for Depression and Anxiety

https://www.integrativepsychiatry.ne...epression.html

Natural Alternatives To Xanax, Ativan, And Anti-Anxiety Drugs - Reset.me