So my pdoc app is this Thursday. I've been dealing with a lot lately. The hallucinations and paranoia are getting worse each day. I'm dealing with suicidal thoughts and thoughts of self harm, which hasn't happened in a long time. I have nothing to combat them with. Anyone have any tips? I just have to make it a few more days.

Good news is that I got my seroquel and Valium back. I was up for 4 days and was finally able to get /some/ sleep. My anxiety and panic attacks have also lessened. That's great but they aren't completely gone. They're still there and working against me.

I'm tired of staring out the window in paranoia. And my house being bugged? I know it's unrealistic but I can't come to believe it.

So does anyone have anything that can help? :/