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Wander · Nov 08, 2016, 08:02 PM

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Originally Posted by LadyShadow

Yes the meds will bring you down. But yes I remember what that was like for me. Last year I had such a "spiritual awakening" I ended up in the hospital. I was speaking to the trees the lovely "Northern Wind" that used to blow through my hair on October nights making me feel one with the Universe. I know the feelings all too well.

I am sorry it didn't last. Usually its a euphoria that leads to danger so be thankful at least you came down to a bit of reality. I miss those feelings every day. Life isn't just the same after you've experienced such bliss.

Gentle ((hugs))

Thanks! I had Olanzapine about 4pm yesterday and the euphoria is returning. Yey for me! Normal feels so boring. As I;m IP I am guessing they will keep medicating me when I get too high even though I don't want to be. I guess I could resist but non-compliance leads to bad consequences(like being put in a locked ward with no access to treatment team I know well) and it also breaks down trust between me and staff. I will just hold off taking anti-psychotics as long as possible.

What is odd is that after i took the olazapine my euphoria and positivity turned to dysphoria and negativity rather than bringing me to the middle I swung below baseline. I felt awful. Not sure how that happens.