Our means of help are pretty cut off from each other where I liv. I actually have to ask them to talk to each other. I think in a way that is good. They only contact each other if I ask them to.

It seems different there. What things do they want you to do, that they have decided without consulting you? If they did that with me, I would feel humiliated to no end. Because I have a voice, I have a language, and I express myself well (when I try, LOL).

There is something innately unhealthy having "staff" sitting there taking notes and asking about your life, what you "want to do", hearing it is "all for you", still the conversation could just as well be you sitting on the floor and them sitting in a tall chair. Them writing papers about you and your "functioning", your "problem areas"... putting your name in each and every sentence, so much that you want to rip your name out of there so it will not be infected by their words.

If you even get a meeting. I understand there can be even worse things. Not being asked at all. People with half your IQ and no knowledge of your personality. But life trained them to "know" how good they are.

I have mostly made it on my own. Even in my deepest, darkest times, I have made it alone. Then there was no real help. I have lived through weird financial issues and made it, through weird friendship and made it, through grief and made it. Now they ask if they drop me off two blocks away from my home, will I get lost?

That makes me sad.