If it were, you shouldn't have SI thoughts. Kundhalini/Spiritual Awkening is all
a possibility in my opinion. I wouldn't tell your doctor this, he will most likely increase/add med or send to hospital. Almost all of my manias were spiritual to me. They don't understand it. You will meet others who can relate to your experience. I would do research and try to find out everything you can about
what's going on. If your not normally a spiritual person, or religious it would
probably be very confusing and maybe lead to a mix state./
Good luck to ya!