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Originally Posted by Christopher1990
If it were, you shouldn't have SI thoughts. Kundhalini/Spiritual Awkening is all
a possibility in my opinion. I wouldn't tell your doctor this, he will most likely increase/add med or send to hospital. Almost all of my manias were spiritual to me. They don't understand it. You will meet others who can relate to your experience. I would do research and try to find out everything you can about
what's going on. If your not normally a spiritual person, or religious it would
probably be very confusing and maybe lead to a mix state./
Good luck to ya!
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Well this mania started off very dark and I was suicidal. It keeps switching between euphoria and dysphoria. I love the euphoria. It due to my ptsd triggered mania that I am already IP. Wish it would stay happy but I fall into darkness at times with same racing thoughts, pressured speech, anxiety and agitation. I feel like my brain is trying to process trauma but switches to euphoria as a defence mechanism to keep me safe. At all times I feel like a god and that i can change the world in a powerful way and know ALL.
I have been reading on spiritual emergencies online where mania can lead to spiritual awakening. Thing is, I am not religious at all but do have a spirituality of sorts even though I lean towards atheism.
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