I dont remember posting this last night. Pretty sad, eh. I got a problem, I know. I just wish i could drink one and let it be. But i cant, me and my sorry *** is gonna go all the way. Drink everything thats there.

My t knows about the drinking issue, at least for the most part. And she talks to me about it. She gave me a flyer about the AA meeting they have on wednesday down here.

But I cant get myself to go to the meeting. I got it in my head that I can quit on my own. Thats what i'm trying to do. I promised my t that i wouldnt touch any hard liqour and i'm doin good with that.

I hear ya'll from where ya coming from. I guess i just dont want to admit how bad I am with it. I'm scared to admit it. This is who ive been for as long as i can remember. And ive had so much change in my life the past few years, I dont want nothing else to change. But holding on to this just aint right.

Thank you split and rayna for responding