<font color="purple"> So yeah, I told my mom about how I did a little research about trich and when she said if I might have it I just said that it wouldn't suprise me really. So she asked me if basicly what I was saying was that "I need a therapist" I really forgot how I responded to that.

I'm actualy...a little nervous really.
The only expirience that I've had with therapy is when I was a little kid. It's not like it was a horribly traumatic expirience or anything- infact seeing my therapist was pretty much one of the few joyful moments of my day back then, but I know that this would be different now.

It's funny really, because I've been wanting to do this for years. I wanted to figure out what the heck was going on in my head. But now that the actual ARRANGEMENTS are being made I'm getting nervous. Mostly because of the fear of if I'm wrong and my hair pulling etc is just a bad habbit and I'll be made a fool of. Also because I have a hard time talking to people. Period. Also, I'm worried that I'll have to take medication for my anxiety/depression because as far as I know that kind of medicine is only in pill form and I'm really bad at taking pills.

But yeah.
I'm really nervous
I think if I told anyone that I was seeing a therapist outside of my mom that they wouldn't unserstand. I seem so "normal" to them, my mom is the only person who really notices my inner struggles. I just don't see my friends that often, my brother and I are close, but he tends to stay distant from me when it comes to these kinds of problems unless I snap and just flip out at him in anger/sadness/fear. As for my father? He's is denial of his own problems and is so wrapped up with his new girlfriend I know he'd just shoot it down with something like "Your mom is crazy! You're fine! Why would you need a therapist when you can talk to ME anytime you want!?" *takes it personaly and falls into a depression thinking that he's a terrible father while confiding this only to his girlfriend*

wait...
...How did this go from
"therapy OMG"
to...
"My family OMG"
?

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