Me too, pain stop=peace.

Please try to determine exactly what WILL stop the pain (other than death) and STOP IT.

I'll assume you are alone (nobody willing/able to help you stop the pain)-
Identify it, (try) fix it + because nobody should have to spend a lifetime in pain.
We weren't born that way, and we shouldn't have to live that way.

How long is a reasonable amount of time to be stuck in pain,
before "society" says,
"ok, we now approve and inform you it's time for you to end your life because there's no possibility, and we can't hep you to make that pain go away?".

It might just be me, or my life,
but I believe the PRIMARY REASON people are forced to kill themselves,
is because nobody cares (lack compassion/concern) for those who are suffering in severe, immobilizing pain.

No, a 3 day hospital stay, a few questionable medications, or even a 30 day stay of intensive therapy, is simply not enough to cure the pain/despair or depression/anger having suicidal thoughts creates.

Please do something that will bring you JOY today (anything),
I'm not equipped to help you cure your pain,
but I hope a few minutes of joy, may make it more bearable today.