I know it's scary but well done.
I was sooooo nervous the first time I went and I don't know why but I still get nervous as I'm going there each week even though I know it's not scary and the T is really nice.

They are really nice - I think it's part of their job description and they will not make you talk about stuff you don't want to.
I also hate talking about myself and it still feels weird and there are a lot of things I can't even talk about. I make myself feel better by never looking at my T in the eye. I've been seeing her for years and don't even know what her face looks like - but I could give you a detailed description of all her shows and the pattern on the carpet.

About the tablet thing - one of the anti-depressants fluoxetine (also known as lovan or prozac) is available in a non-tablet form. There are ones that you dissolve and water but it doesn't taste great.

As for telling others you are going, I would suggest don't unless they need to know for some reason. I haven't told anyone besides my partner. None of my friends know.

Everyone thinks that there problems are small and insignificant and they will look stupid by going to a T for them but you need help, and your problems aren't silly. You said your mom knows of your struggles and even suggested therapy - so you have someone else who thinks your problems aren't small.

Be sure to let us know how you go.
I know you will be nervous no matter how much everyone tells you it isn't that bad, but just make yourself go. Good Luck