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Originally Posted by here today
I've not been following this thread much, been in the midst of my own similar stuff. I'm not feeling so vindictive any more, but it IS important to me to try to have my voice heard and to try to bring the kind of harm which happened to me to the attention of some people in the profession, at least. So I definitely understand where you're coming from, MariaLucy.
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It is really hard 'here today' to not go with the desire for vengeance. But like you, I know I need to make this profession clear that they are damaging people simply through lack of forethought and training and I shall keep going until I get heard. I spent a couple of hours today writing in my journal trying to get my head around what has happened this past 10 weeks. It is seven weeks since the phone call. I still wake at 4am every single morning with a mind tormented with trying to work out HOW and WHY he did this. My beloved T. Why?
Then I wrote a short story about it.
Which I haven't quite finished. I might post it here if I feel okay with it.
As my mental health advisor made clear - no matter what had happened to my T, short of a coma or death - there are a variety of ways to not have damaged me further by doing such a brutal ending.
Jeez. I feel so stabbed in the back. From the man who assured me for six years that he was on my side, would never just drop me, cared about deeply and wanted me to open up and be vulnerable with him.
