I feel kind of very energetic still and I get these phases very often. More than like just feeling REALLY happy. I get that too but not so much. Anyway when I get so energetic I feel kind of good and fast and somewhat mighty but I also feel really angry and aggressive and get a lot of bad thoughts. Can hypomania be like that too, like not feeling very very happy but still not sleeping and sped up and all?
And today I was just really tired and wanting to go home but I had law clases and then something started that I have since I was a child. I think it is calles hypersensitivity or something. It's like everything is louder than it really is and like the voices and noises are really inside of my head and not outside. Colours are brighter, up to the point that it hurts. Also my field of vision suddenly seems double its former size and I seem to be able to see more things at a time. I notice every movement, every sound and it's just too much so I start to get so aggressive that I want to hurt the people who are clicking their pens and all but obviously I never give in but still it is so exhausting and just a pain in the *** to have to stay in my seat while wanting to scream and run away from everything into a cave where no lights or sounds can find me.
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