someone said maybe i would feel better if i wrote down how i feel............ so here goes....

when i first got trasfered to my local mental health team, i thought they were going to help me, in a way that my old cpn never did.....
at first i guess they did, but now i feel that they cant be bothered with me.
i have made 3 apointments to see my social worker and my community care assistent has made one as well. but all were cancelled..... and the best bit is .... i had to ring or arrive for the apointment before i get told. " sorry your social worker isnt here".
my last apointment was this past wednesday, i had an apointment for 11pm, so i made my way to her office, when i got there i was told "sorry, she's off ill", " she rang this morning and asked us to ring her apointment list tolet them know". so i asked why no-one had phoned me........... and my reply was " she told us who she was ment to be seeing today, and your name wasnt one of them" .
i felt like a fool, if my community care assistent hadnt made the apointment for me , i would of thought i was going mad (madder)
i spoke to my cca, and he showed me in his diary that i had the right date..........
si i have decided i am not going to bother making another apointment, they cant be bothered with me, so why should i comply with the things they have got me to do........
i wash my hands with my local mental health team, like they have with me..............