Hello Kit Kat234: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. I'm afraid I don't have any particularly useful suggestions to offer. From what you wrote, it sounds like you're doing everything you can & more. However I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

P.S. By the way, with regard to your physical symptoms, are you familiar with PsychCentral's sister website: NeuroTalk? There are many members there who are very experienced with, & knowledgeable regarding, the types of physical health challenges you're facing. You might consider signing in there as well.

NeuroTalk Support Groups