You sound borderline rather than bipolar. Instead of atypicals, I would try the older typical AP called Haldol, which has shown promise in BPD. You can use it PRN (as needed as opposed to on a maintenance basis). Nothing in your description fits bipolar as far as I can see. If you have bipolar, trying SSRI's alone (without atypicals or a mood stabilizer) can be very dangerous. It sounds like you need a deeper evaluation. A neuropsychological assessment would help clear things for you, but costs a lot of money. If you have an insurance that would cover it, I would definitely recommend it.