I understand the 'shut up' I had that for twenty years and every time I went to speak I was told to shut up, I kept it locked inside it didnt go any where just stayed with me, you poor thing I feel for you so much, I have been able to talk for six years now and still it keeps flowing and I dont know if it will ever stop, first I lost all confidence and needed lots of meds, I am still on the meds but my confidence is slowly returning and I am becoming the person I should of been, you too will get there now it is allowed out, just dont stop if you feel like talking and no one is there then pm me or write it down on paper, just dont bottle it up any more ......

Trish.