First off I'm sorry if I have some mistakes with my writing.

A little backround about me, I'm an asian girl, born and raised from an asian country and I lived there all my life. I was diagnosed from Dysthymia this year. So I eventually stopped going to school since my anxiety is getting worse and worse. Now, my mom decided that it would be better if I'll move to a new place to start a new life or whatever. So I moved to USA. I told my mom and stepfather that I need to take a break from school. I dont think I'm ready yet because I'm still recovering from the trauma and everything that happened. Well anyway since I dont go to school I dont have the chance to meet new people/people of my age. I dont work either because I dont know how to drive (I live in a country side). Ive been four months here and never met my neighbors in this small town where everyone is supposed to know each other. As much as I love jogging and warming up I never went out for a walk or something. Its just not easy for me. I'm a foreigner to this country and its just difficult for me to adapt to the culture. For example (and no offense but) I dont like american foods. I tried many times to eat but it makes me gag and embarrass myself in front of everyone in the table. I'm just not used to it. I like oriental food which is not available in our small town. I also observed that strangers greet each other and sometimes have some small talk and if you pretended like you didnt see them, its rude. Thats the main reason why I dont go out. Im scared of being ignored.

I remember when I went shopping with my mom's friend. We went to another city to go to the mall. Shes an old caucasian woman. Everybody we encountered greeted and talked to her. And while I tried to make eye contact so I can say hello but they seem to not recognize my existence. They dont even look at me. And I dont know WHY. That memory has been stucked in my head until now. Is it because I'm asian? Or is it because Im a teenager? Who the **** knows.

I'm scared to go out and having to talk to neighbors mainly because I dont know how to speak english. Sure I can write but believe me I cant speak it. When I try to I always asked to repeat it 3x. Clearly they dont understand what I'm saying. Another thing I dont know how to talk, I dont know how americans talk. I dont know their humor. I dont know how to react. I just dont know. All i know is depression is starting to take over again. I've never met anyone of the same race in my place because our town is like 99.9% white people

TLDR: I literally dont have friends and I don't know how to make friends as an asian person.