I haven't seen my pdoc in like 2 months and I'm finally seeing him tomorrow. I'm extremely nervous. I'm giving him my notes that include my hallucinations, paranoia, dissociation, and suicidal ideation. My notes describe everything in depth. I'm scared at the possibility of the hospital, but I think I'd survive. Not sure if my pdoc will even suggest it but I'll see. Wish me luck. Hopefully I'll get a good med change.

Now I'm just waiting for my seroquel kick in so I can get to sleep.

I'll update tomorrow with what happens.