Well were do I start. I'm a 30 year old male that fell in love with a 31 year old female. Let me start from the beginning...
I moved next door to the love of my life & she lives with her dad. Now I didn't find her attractive at all at first. She chased me for years I even stopped talking to her for a year when she asked me out.
Ok I'll try to shorten the story. We got to hanging out, drinking on a regular occasion. I settled for her and decided to be a couple. Things got serious in moved into her dad's house.
I started noticing unusual behaviors between him and her. Her pants and underwear were always dropping off her privates around him. I offered to buy a belt she refused. He gets naked changed not in the bathroom and she's ok with it. I caught her lift her shirt up but she was stretching. He slept in the bed with her until age 13 she told me and he sleeps nude. they swing outside all afternoon and night fantasizing together. The list goes on.
I asked about sexual abuse but she denies it. That became a constant argument was the accusations.
Long story short I got into one argument with him and got kicked out. I'm leaving out a lot of detail for length here. Oh I forgot to mention we got or were engaged.
I got sent to the phyc ward for saying I would kill him if our relationship ended because of him. She gave the ring back when I was in there.
Now 2 weeks later she wants to be secret bf gf. We were sexually but not sex active every day. I've been going threw a lonely withdrawal from not being with her. We slept in the same bed about 7 months.
It's been so hard and I tell her every day she makes me hate life.
Well that's my story summed up with a lot taken out. How do I deal with this loneliness and heartbreak? I truly did fall in love with her. I don't know what to do now in the situation.
We talk everyday and tell each other we lover each other. A healthy relationship is impossible with her father. She chose him over me. She won't leave him for me. Many people and neighbors say he controls her. Oh has an order of protection for me.
I honestly love her more than anything and want things to work. Any input or advice would be very great fully appreciated.