I know I need to talk to my doctor about this but I am curious about other peoples opinions/experiences. My doctor was supposed to see me today but didn't show so I guess I will see him tomorrow instead.

The reason I was admitted was due to PTSD and a kind of dysphoric mania that had me believing crazy violent things including SI. Over the last two days the darkness has gone and I am super-euphoric. I feel awesome, god-like. My mind is racing and I have some anxiety and agitation but generally calm. My mind is filled with positivity and joy. I also feel at one with the universe to such a degree I can anticipate the near future. I feel very powerful. My mind is on fire. Kind of like being on LSD but better. No hallusionations. Still, I am harmless. I just want to get out of here and explore the world, even just my suburb which is on the most beautiful beaches.

I am coming off Cymbalta, taking none now with only few adverse effects. My Ritalin was also reduced in case it had brought on the mania but I doubt it was that so I can go back to my old dose. Im on a higher dose of Lithium now and can continue with that. I also have Olanzapine PRN and take Clonazepam daily. Meds seem under control now. The PTSD trigger is far from my mind and doesn't bother me anymore.

So, do you think I am ready to go home on Saturday or am I missing something? I just hate being cooped up in here when there is so much fun to be had outside these walls.