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Originally Posted by Wander
I know I need to talk to my doctor about this but I am curious about other peoples opinions/experiences. My doctor was supposed to see me today but didn't show so I guess I will see him tomorrow instead.
The reason I was admitted was due to PTSD and a kind of dysphoric mania that had me believing crazy violent things including SI. Over the last two days the darkness has gone and I am super-euphoric. I feel awesome, god-like. My mind is racing and I have some anxiety and agitation but generally calm. My mind is filled with positivity and joy. I also feel at one with the universe to such a degree I can anticipate the near future. I feel very powerful. My mind is on fire. Kind of like being on LSD but better. No hallusionations. Still, I am harmless. I just want to get out of here and explore the world, even just my suburb which is on the most beautiful beaches.
I am coming off Cymbalta, taking none now with only few adverse effects. My Ritalin was also reduced in case it had brought on the mania but I doubt it was that so I can go back to my old dose. Im on a higher dose of Lithium now and can continue with that. I also have Olanzapine PRN and take Clonazepam daily. Meds seem under control now. The PTSD trigger is far from my mind and doesn't bother me anymore.
So, do you think I am ready to go home on Saturday or am I missing something? I just hate being cooped up in here when there is so much fun to be had outside these walls.
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In your state I would come home....but I live with a well trained mental health professional and we do not fear my happy manias as much as the doctors. I mostly have happy mania but it has turned very disphoric on several occasions also. You could stay to get your meds adjusted and get back to baseline. This would be the wise choice if you are in a relatively comfortable environment and safe currently is a smart thing to stay.
I get very paranoid in the hospital and was almost assaulted by a very large naked women (sexually assaulted). Fortunately a nurse walked in on it and put a stop to it. The worst part was I was thought I was hallucinating the whole thing. Earlier in the day she came up and said "you sure are pretty". I said thank you but was paranoid of everyone and just walked away. Then she stripped naked and came and hovered over me in my bed breathing very heavy. I got away and reported it and they said she was harmless and expected me to accept it. I tried to sleep in a chair for 8 hours and finally got sick and in pain and tried the bed again....I rolled over and had my back to her.....she did it again....I heard the breathing but was too scared to turn around and a nurse came in and was horrified and apologized to me. Scary stuff.