I am not really seeing them in black and white, I like all of my friends a lot and really care about them but I know that they all have their wonderful traits but also their weaknesses. I never get to the point of getting so disappointed that I hate anyone. With the guy I am dating I am rather withdrawing now because I don't really feel stable and I don't wanna take it out on him and don't want him so see the shape I am in. Anyway I have been talking to him and told him about my fear that he won't like me anymore if he knows what I am actually like. So I don't think it sounds too much like borderline. It's rather that sometimes I tell so much stupid stuff that I feel I can never leave my house again or that I am just unable to see anyone and feel utterly lonely with my thoughts because they are spinning so fast.