people at school keep talking about dissociation. last night i was meeting with my small group at a resturant and it was really fun and then one of them brought up how she thinks our teacher has different personalities (just joking of course). it turned into a thirty minute conversation about dissociative identity disorder and they were calling it multiple personality disorder and there are only three people in the group i'm in and it was getting so suffocating. no one at school in that class knows i have DID and i dont want to talk to them about it, especially since it's still undiagnosed (current therapist is fairly new) and i doubt my own symptoms a lot of the time. it was just super frustrating and i didnt know how to change the subject without giving away my 'secret.' and i don't want them to find out, they'd just gossip and talk about it without me there and that scares me. does anyone have ideas to change the subject or move on or somehow tell them im scared of the subject without letting on that i know a lot about it? im also high functioning, i work over 20 hours a week and i go to school full time in university and the woman they were specifically talking about sounded like she was psychotic and now im scared that if they find out they'll expect something different of me or watch me really close or something. i dont know.

also people are reroofing the house i live in and theyre right next to my window right now and im crying because theyre so close and so loud. there's hammer sounds and really loud shingle dropping sounds that are shaking my room. whole system is freaking out and i've been trying to calm down but this is just really frustrating and last night was enough frustration and fear without this on top of it. sorry for the post, i know it doesn't really make a ton of sense. im sorry.