I am a severe alcoholic and have been for ten years. I was always abusive of it having learned to drink from my nerdy teenage friends. I lost total control after 2001 when my normal personality had a total mental breakdown.

I drink to forget suicidal emotions stemming from total isolation in life and my inability to find a mental health professional who is trained in dissociative disorders. I have been trying to get help since 1992. I now have extreme anger issues, frustration issues along with the suicidal emotions.

The last month I have been trying to quit and have two five day sober periods.