Yeah, I really think figuring it out with the Dr is the answer. It's so hard to say from here. You *do* sound elevated for sure. If I "had" to guess, from here, just from reading, I'd put it at high hypo/low mania level. I am SO glad for you feeling good!

But there are some things I find concerning... thinking maybe this is the new you (which is great, but personal experience has been misjudgement on my part --it's also when I'm most likely to think I can quit meds). Words like "super euphoric", "god-like" "connected with the universe" to the degree to able to see the near future, etc.

The one I probably find the most concerning is where you talk about the med adjustments, saying,"My Ritalin was also reduced in case it had brought on the mania but I doubt it was that so I can go back to my old dose." Might not be the best time to think about self-adjusting meds, you know? Especially when it is an upward one, and being because you "doubt it was" at a time when you say you are "finding it hard to see negatives now."

Like you say, it is a hard call. Elsa makes an excellent point about the environment you'd be going back to. I do remember that your family is supportive, but can't remember their proximity. Is it possible one of them can stay with you for a bit to smooth the transition?