There's a scale at my workplace's fitness center and I decided to weigh myself. I think I actually gained weight, even though I thought I lost. And seeing how high the number is...I'm so disgusted with myself. Normal people my age can be sedentary, live on junk food, and be the definition of hot. I do the same and end up looking repulsive.

It's weirdly motivating to start making changes now that I have a number to work from...but I know I have no discipline.