Now that I am back home I feel better and more assured that I can be treated with more dignity and respect. What I am afraid of is that if I do need any hospitalization, where would I go if my insurance exhausted my benefits until Jan 08? It's not like I want to go back into the hospital, but what to do just in case I really do get totally out of control or severely depressed again where I become suicidal. Right now I just feel some hypomania and moderate depression together. I guess that's why I also have mixed states of bipolar as well. I wish I could just have "simple" symptoms that were easier to manage, but no I have to be a rapid cycler as well. Thanks to all for your support, it means alot.