I don't usually look in this forum, but I can definitely relate to feeling anger and hatred. I can sometimes numb it out and put on a fake smile, but the idea that you can "fake it till you make it" definitely hasn't worked for me.

I have taken citalopram but after a few month it usually makes me more angry than when I was depressed. I'm on it again right now and my energy level is better but I'm thinking about asking the pdoc about coming off because of the anger.

Wish I had something more positive to offer.