I do the reading but implementing the ideas into my life is hard,. I try to do my reading in happy places, like outside next to my pond on nice days...Or snuggled up in bed with my heating blanket and a cup of tea. Anyplace that's a comforting place. Sometimes at a coffee shop with a nice cup of coffee. The people milling around I don't feel so alone. I don't know if I'm helping.... I hope it gets easier for you soon.