Our systems sound very similar. It is much smarter to go voluntarily and they have presented me that option in the past. Unfortunately my paranoia and belief that they were part of a conspiracy to lock me up forever clouded my ability to see things in this way at the time. My mind was far gone.....my husband and mother were in on it....I felt so alone and abandoned and like an experiment. If he haldol my husband just picked up doesn't help me sleep then I'm not sure anything will.