My mom was so pissed at me today she overheard a conversation me and my godmother were having in which I told her last night I had pushed myself off the counter backwards the same way I'd done in the hospital she immediately gets mad and starstruck yelling well if your going to do that it won't be under my ròof.and then my dad putting his two cents in she just needs attention.then my mom is like she doesn't want to live with us.and it was just a mess.i also later went to the doctor and found out I may have pulled my back muscle by doing it.i feel like though I have a demon inside of me otherwise I wouldn't be compelled to constantly do these bad things .I wouldn't still feel compelled to try this again