My boyfriend, who I may not reconcile with, and I talked last night after a few days of me having minimal to no contact with him. I expressed that I was still hurt and betrayed by what I found out over the weekend (I wrote a previous post about it here). I was calm when I talked to him, but still firm about being hurt. He kept saying he would do anything to make me happy, but he has hurt me pretty bad more than once, so naturally I have my doubts.

Plus, the incident involving webcams brought back past trauma and general feeling of being betrayed. I told him this, and he was understanding of me being hurt, but he kept asking if I can meet him for lunch. He said he wanted to get closer to me and he missed the closer intimacy with me, which I was clear I was not capable of giving him to the degree he wanted since it took a lot to trust him all over again since the first time we broke up. I wasn't expected to be pressured like that, and I don't do well with pressure. I blurted out I would think about it, but did not feel comfortable.

Later that night, I texted him that I don't feel comfortable meeting at this time. The next day, he sent me a "Good Morning" text, trying to be cute. I sent something brief and said I was still feeling hurt, but I'd talk to him later. He didn't respond to that text. However, I did not talk to him today nor did he attempt to, and I have something to do tomorrow where I do not want to have any emotional talks.

Maybe he's gotten the point to stay away, but I have read how the silent treatment is passive-aggressive, and I don't want to hurt him in that way, although I'm upset. By me not contacting him, I'm protecting myself by giving myself space since talking to him is rather triggering. However, if he were to call, I would not deliberately ignore him. I'm just not initiating. Am I in the wrong to withdraw for a while? I'm just not ready to update him more on how I'm actually feeling worse, not better.