It was my jealousy again. This is about the 3rd or 4th time Ive lost a relationship due to it. For the whole first year he was trying, I would not go on a date with him for this reason. I knew it would happen again. I finally said yes, fell in love, and now im in this mess.

He told me he will always love me (I hate that), and that he will never forgive himself but this is what feels right to him right now.

I cant even say I blame him.